decided...

no. 280 entries...

just a number anyway...

I've decided for my future, temporary though

but will see where it leads me...

not the best choice in everyone's eye, but I choose my own path...if you dont feels like supporting me, then just forget it. I dont need you anyway because I have others who support me. The best part is, I support myself!!!

no regrets and am ready to face it. =)

2 days left...

mom called and asked what is my decision

I replied in a calm tone and said "see first..."

today is Wednesday anyway, 2 more days to go. I thought I have decided, but now I am in doubt again...

all these has distracted me, helpless yet need to face it...

time has come, my future is in my own hands...

[ There is a saying that urges, "Excel at something!" It is important to become a person who is trusted by others wherever you are, and a person who shines with excellence. Sometimes a person may dislike his job at first, but grow to love it once he become serious about doing his best. "What one likes, one will do well," goes another saying.

Growing to like your job can also enable you to develop your own talent. Once you have made a decision to work at a certain place, it is important that you pursue the path you have chosen without being discouraged or defeated, so that you will have no regrets in making that choice. ]

from Youth! - A Time For Construction

whatever my decision is, is for myself and not for others and I will not regret...

hmmm...

entering the last month of internship...where will I ended at?

decision to be made by next week...

letter for myself

Dear Edward Low Sew Yin,

Hi, first and for most, Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Single Awareness Day (as if you ever celebrated Valentine's...lol) how are you lately?? I am fine here anyway.

The reason why did you write you this letter is because I have notice something recently and I got something really serious to tell you.

JUST FUCKING FOCUS ON WHAT YOU SUPPOSE TO BE DOING RIGHT NOW AND DO NOT LET ANY OTHER EXTERNAL SITUATIONS TO CHANGE YOUR FOCUS POINT!!!

YOU MUST BE CLEAR ON WHAT IS YOUR PRIORITY NOW!!! NOTHING IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN THAT!!!

IT IS THE CRUCIAL MONTHS AS YOU MENTIONED BEFORE, JUST FUCKING STICK TO THE BLOODY PLAN AND DONT CHANGE IT!!!

YOU ARE AN ADULT ALREADY, NEED NOT ME TO TELL YOU WHAT ARE YOU SUPPOSE TO BE DOING!!!

BE SELFISH IN ORDER TO REACH YOUR GOALS AND OBJECTIVES. BEING TOO KIND AINT GOING TO DO ANY GOOD TO YOURSELF ANYWAY!!!

THIS IS THE REAL WORLD, FACE THE FACT THAT YOU HAVE TO THINK FOR YOURSELF BEFORE THINK FOR OTHERS!!! WHY DO YOU CARE SO MUCH ON HOW OTHERS FEEL WHEN THEY DONT GIVE A DAMN ON HOW YOU FEEL?? WHY DO YOU CARE SO MUCH WHEN THEY DONT EVEN CARE FOR THEMSELVES??

YOU WILL BE JUST A JOKE AT THE END BECAUSE ALL THE EFFORT YOU TRY TO MAKE SOMEONE FEELS BETTER, EVENTUALLY MAKES YOURSELF FEEL SUCKS!!! AND THEY WILL ONLY LAUGH AT YOU!!!

MARK MY WORDS!!! DO WHAT YOU SUPPOSE TO BE DOING AND DONT SLACK ANYMORE!!!

lastly, do take care of yourself. you lost some appetite recently. eat up and drink more water. =)

cheers!!!

your sincerely,

Edward Low Sew Yin

虎劳也！！！

know what does that mean?? it pronounce as HuLaoYe...or more likely to be HUALAUYEH!!!

yup, is the year of Tiger..Metal Tiger if not mistaken. It marks my 1 year in Singapore too. as usual, this year obviously is more happening than previous one...

got an huge ang pao from management but spent all of them already...feel real good when spending money, but after that slightly guilty. Who cares? Happy then can already!!!

today also a lovely day for couples around the world. Valentine's Day it is...but it is less happening since family comes first especially for Chinese...plus Singaporean so know how to enjoy their life, majority of the shopping malls and food outlets close early yesterday and totally not operating on the next few days.

anyway, all I am thinking is how long will Cupid play with me this poor fellow...

shouldn't think about it at all as it is my crucial months, but somehow this day fall in between this period...should be alright in next few days.

so, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to everyone!!!

may you all have a prosperous year ahead of you and healthy always!!!

and happy valentine's day too...