thoughts in mind...

I dont know where else can I voice it out but my own place, so I broke my own promise to no body and post another entry here...

when you spent whole off day at home, most of the time you will start thinking about many things.

and mainly is life...yes, my own life.

what worse when it is the end of the year, think back...what have I done?? definitely many, but should it be more?? more as in more interesting, more happening, more meaningful...

because I spent most of my time sitting in front of laptop...

productive?? only when I go to class or internship...or when I rushing my assignments. other than that, basically I did nothing much.

did I wasted my entire 2009?? guess so...comes to think of it, what is the biggest achievement I have for this year?? I would said none, unless I consider 3 and half hours driving back to KL from Penang while raining heavily is an achievement. what about spending nearly RM50,000 to get a degree is a great achievement...ok, I have to wait till next year to achieve that. But the fees already been paid!

seriously, what did I achieved this year?? I kept asking myself again and again...the answer is none! basically I wasted 1 whole year doing a scheduled daily routine life....attended class and went home straight for almost 9 months. went to work and go home for 3 months...

what the fuck??!!

there goes my 2009...did I enjoy it??? yes and no...

I hate to be alone and yet..i am alone all the time.

emo entry it is...cause I fucking hate this feeling right now. I feel guilty to myself. I feel sorry to myself. I felt so useless from time to time...

2010?? dont know what to look forward. besides getting a degree and working full time. maybe add some spice to my life, if there is any..if not, it will still be the same.

at this moment, besides my mom...I miss you the most!!! But you are already gone...

wish you could be here with me.

ps: being too cheerful all the time really not a good thing...

2010, here I come!!!

Okay, I promise this will be my last post of year 2009. Entry No. 270 it is!!!

many things had happen recently and many things had gone through my mind as well...
but I must stay focus...
so, here I go...

walking out from year 2009 full with all the good and bad experiences I had. walking out with no regret about any big decision I have made throughout the year and most importantly, did my best in everything that I need to accomplish.

and, here I come...

walking in to 2010 with my dreams, life objectives, hope, expectations and many more. Looking forward for this brand new year and hopefully it will be a good year.


what is my new year resolution??

be myself... =)

Happy New Year everyone!!!

concluding 2009

sorry for rarely update recently due to got nothing to update besides my daily routine life.

with barely 8 more days before the end of 2009...what have I done for this whole year??

one answer for sure, waste lot of money to study in Singapore. made my mom worry about me all the time because I am far away from her. but will be seeing my beloved family next month due to cousin wedding in Singapore!!!

my life is more happening at the final quarter of the year due to internship. got more friends, more outing but all are healthy outing. no drinking or money wasting activities...still do spend some on food, movie and badminton. but thats it, nothing more than that.

until now I still have the same question like others who deadly wanted to ask me...how can I survive with 500 salary per month and rental already consumed 400. my answer to you is I dont know how either. some how I still be able to enter my third month of internship in one piece.

besides study and internship, I really didnt do much this year. maybe that is my 2009 objective. nearly accomplish with 3 more months to go and that bloody report.

watched biggest movie of 2009 at cinema. 2012 and Avatar. both made me couldn't sleep for hours after watching the movie. awesome and must watch!!!

it is time to make up my mind where should I go after graduate, but my mind is still blur at this moment. hopefully I will have a clearer view sooner rather than later.

what else happened to me in 2009?? most happening should be officially becoming an adult. but still not doing any adult alike thing. still like a student. (no wonder Geylang prostitutes dont even bother to come close to me) what I meant by adult thing is not finding prostitutes, but more matured life time decision or something like that.

am I lucky or what?? twice internship also very enjoyable experiences. although have some bad experiences but the good one can really overcome all the bad one. other than real life working experience, I still have to say this..I found another group of friends here in Singapore.

thank you very much for supporting, assist and guide me throughout these 3 months with another 3 months to go. I cannot survive without you guys and you guys really make my life more interesting and more happening. really glad to be able to work and learn from you all.

have I changed? I dont think so...still so lame and still being myself in front of everyone. started to lose control these few days, maybe is the new year coming syndrome. the party mode is on but cant really party due to working. but somehow still can find a way to enjoy it.

yes, I am an entertainer and I have my own audience. =)

2009, not a bad year after all besides those heart broken moment. Other than that, I will appreciate everything I have learned in year 2009. Definitely going to appreciate my mom's effort to support my further study in Singapore with my deepest heart. My mom is No. 1 mom in the world!!!!!!! and I miss her very much.

anyway, Merry Christmas and Happy 2010 to everyone. thanks for keeping my life updated through out these 2 years and still counting.

wish everyone best year ahead of you. =D

Edward Low signing off for 2009.