Merdeka~

damn!!! I have been sitting at home since I came back from college until 12am.

I was watching the tv live from Dataran Merdeka and when the time reach 12 am sharp, I ran to the window with my camera on...but what I saw is

so, not to disappoint you guys like what have I experienced. I made it out for you guys...

just imagine, we use all of our money to make the highest and biggest fire works ever~ ( I know it looks sucks) (ToT)

slightly better right?? haha ( just cracking it out for fun)
I need to do all this crap just because this year, only Dataran Merdeka (KL) allowed to have huge celebration...
but I am lucky enough to see the furthest fire works...

yup..it is from Genting, no need to think that I am crapping here again...this is damn true, when skies are clear, I can see Genting from my place..
they have fire work, very clear but very small..haha

then there were some cheaplak fire work around the housing areas...( those can hear sound but cant see anything)

then this morning watched National Day Parade(biggest in Malaysia..so far)

then few jets fly passed above my place...can see them do stunt around KL as well, haha

today is a beautiful day at KL..clear blue sky~hmmmm

and in the evening....the sun is soooooo bright~ ( argghhh!! my eyes!!! )

okok..I know that you guys must be damn sad since cannot see any fire works on this special day..

so, I present you something to cover back your sadness..haha



this is the fireworks that I managed to capture during the launching of The Eye of Malaysia...enjoy!!!

Merdeka !!! Merdeka!!! Merdeka!!!!

** in 2 days, I killed 2 cockroaches...haha

50 years and still counting...

If this happen on few years back, I might be singing all the patriotic songs loud and proud. But unfortunately, I cannot feel anything at college. Not may people seems to bother about this very special occasion.

Few years back, we will have patriotic week and patriotic day to celebrate this very special moment in each year. Patriotic song singing competition, poems and drawing competition will be held at school through out the whole Merdeka month (August).

I feel sad for this to happen, but I seems to be getting lesser and lesser excitement from this occasion. Shame on myself!!!!

I do critic about what is going on around us and sometimes I really couldn't stand it. I also think of working at other country when I have a chance and never come back because of some issue. But no matter what, I still want my child to grow up in Malaysia just like what I did.

As everyone says, Malaysia is a very unique country where we are multi-racial, multicultural and multi-everything. Some conflict that still happening now, it is because the older generation has gone through a lot of pain and they pass the message down to us. What they say is true, but we should be able to make our own decision based on what we observed.

No matter what happen in the country, how much conflicts between the nation, between government and nation or what so ever problems that occur in this country. I still dare to say, I am proud to be a Malaysian!!!!

I wish that we can improve in every field that we are in now. I hope that I day we can really celebrate our National Day in pride...Happy Birthday Malaysia

farewell...

today when I was driving to college, news update from hitz.fm....until sports section I was shocked when I heard " Manchester United, Ole Gunnar Solskjaer has retired from professional football due to his long-term knee injury but he will remain as coach in the club"

I don't really watch him play, it is because when I started to watch Man United's matches...he has been suffering with his knee injury. But when ever he played, he will cause opponent problem.

Ole Solskjaer signed for Man United on 29 July 1996 from Molde FC (Norway's club) with several other players but he is the only one who still remain at the club until now. He scored his debut goal just after 6 minutes being sub in against Blackburn Rovers. Solskjaer also being called as "Super-sub" or "Baby-faced assassin" where he have the habit of coming into matches late on and scoring vital goals. One of his best example was coming off the bench and scored 4 goals in final 12 minutes. Man United thrashed Nottingham Forest 8-1.

One of his most crucial goal during his United's career was when he scored the winning goal against Bayern Munich in 90+2 minutes to secure a 2-1 win and helped Man United to win the European Cup as well as winning the famous Treble in 1999.


Man United were losing 1-0 until 89minutes where a corner from Beckham and some poor clearance by Bayern's players Teddy Sheringham to make it 1-1.

few minutes later, Bayern conceded another corner and Beckham will take it. The ball found Sheringham but he head it down and drop in front of Solskjaer. What next??

United won 2-1 and there is no time for Bayern to equalise....

this has made him a firm favorite among the United's fans with song to cheer for him such as "you are my Solskjaer"

you are my Solskjaer, my only Solskjaer,
you make us happy, when Solskjaer play,
you never know dear, how much I love you,
please don't take my Solskjaer away.....

Number 20 is always a Legend in United's heart.

Unfortunately, in year 2003-2004, Solskjaer found himself in and out from the squad due to his knee problem. He is also out for the entire 2004-2005 season with a knee surgery. His "super-sub" role is no longer there and with the arrival of Louis Saha and Wayne Rooney, he found it is difficult to break into the first team. But with his loyalty and faithful, he is always on the team sheet whenever he is fit to play. The "Baby-faced assassin" prove to everyone that he is still plays a vital part in United by 11 goals in last season.

on June 2007, Solskjaer went to a minor knee surgery as he felt discomfort while training with Norway. Although the surgery turn out successfully, but he failed to fully recover and announced his retirement from professional football on 27 August 2007.

Solskjaer has played 366 games and scored 126 goals for Man United. He had won 6 English Premier League, 2 FA Cup, 1 League Cup, 4 Community Shield, 1 Intercontinental Cup and 1 European Cup through out his entire United's career.


a compilation of Solskjaer's action

His football career will never end as he will continue coaching the in the club. He was also appointed as the club's ambassador. Ole has done things for Manchester United that people only dream about. Hopefully he'll now be able to help others realise their dreams.

patriotic??

We have 3 more days before the biggest and most important day of the year 2007. Finally, our country is 50 year old!!!! wooohooooo!!!!

Jalur Gemilng can be seen everywhere, on cars, lorries, buses, buildings, houses..etc etc..

today while I was driving home, I saw a lorry.

err..I was driving on highway, so got no time to take out my camera (just imagine those big rectangles on top are Selangor flags and Jalur Gemilang, and those small rectangles beside are flags of every state.)

From far, I though someone hire lion dance group to perform or something...but when I drove nearer, it was just a lorry that carry unused metals...

then I started to think, is it necessary to put so many flags on a vehicle to show that you are patriotic?? Do they really understand what does patriotic means??

according to Wikipedia again~

Patriotism means denotes positive and supportive attitude towards fatherland or motherland. Patriotism covers attitudes such as : pride in its achievements and culture , the desire to preserve its character and the basis of culture , and identification with other member of the nation.

Patriotism is closely associated with nationalism, and is often used as a synonym for it. Strictly speaking, nationalism is an ideology - but it often promotes patriotic attitudes as desirable and appropriate.(Both nationalist political movement, and patriotic expression, may, yet need not, be negative towards other people's 'fatherland').

Patriotism has ethical connotations: it implies that the 'fatherland' (however defined) is a moral standard or moral value in itself.

is this patriotic or just want to be eye catching??

is goo to encourage the next generation to start loving their country when they are still young..but, do they really know what is going on??

do they really mean it??

why do we need to give out flags?? Malaysians won't take the initiative to get their own flags??

is this something wrong here?? Jalur Gemilang can only be seen when it is near to Independent Day. This year will be slightly special, due to this is 50th Independent for our country. So flags is around much more earlier.

But do they really improve themselves to match up with it?? Well, there must be some but it surely cannot be all. Because even until today, there are still local who don't shows how much they love this country on normal days..only until August, they will start waving Jalur Gemilang and say it loud and proud " I love Malaysia". After August, they will be back to normal...continue with their life.

how sad can it be??

we can't blame everything to government. We, ourselves have to take the responsible and change everything.

yesterday, I was talking about foreign visitors with a friend of mine.
I still remember my uncle told us, one day when he was walking on the street. A foreign tourist asked him, why is this "Jalan Sehala" not stated in the map?? My uncle replied him " Jalan Sehala means one way road, it can be found everywhere."
We are having Visit Malaysia 2007 this year, but we bring inconvenient to our tourists.

another example, one day you were walking on the street. Suddenly one tourist approach you and asked you the direction to certain place, I bet 90% of us cannot show the correct direction to that place.

how about..hmmmm..if I ask you, tell me the history of Petaling Street. Can you tell me anything beside it is a China Town with a lot of pirated stuffs?? (even I can't do it)

We have a lot of historical places or even just a road, there must be a story behind it. But not many of us know a single thing about it. Have you ever visited another country, where the locals over there can talk non-stop wherever you are??

STRANGE?? well...this is normal in Malaysia. We only care about our own life. Even our parents won't tell us all these historical but infamous moments. What we know is what we study from Sejarah text book.

we can make it!!! MALAYSIA BOLEH!!!!

Semester 5!!!!

Yesterday finally I cried after 2 years(if not mistaken)..whole day feel very weird.
Downloaded 3 songs from that drama "1 Litre of Tears"(you can listen to it at here) Kept on repeat playing it until night, somehow I like the songs very much and remind me of those scenes found in that drama. Just feel pity for Aya although she passed away 19 years ago...

Just can't imagine how tough she is during that time, the support from her family especially her mum. After searching around the net, I only notice that she is very famous, even before the drama is out. Her diary has made a big impact in Japan and around the world.(wanted to buy her diary if I can get it)

Beside finally cried for something that I didn't expect to.I felt weird because today will be getting sem 4 final exam result. When Mr.Lai (sem 4 class tutor aka Marketing lecturer) told us that only 5 persons get B for marketing(none get A), about 20 to 30% failed and others is C and D. I was shocked and suddenly felt nervous for my result(kind of relax and joke around before that)

Damn!!!

But hard works paid and I got 3 Bs and 2Cs (although got no A, but almost everyone got the same result as I did!!!) I shout and frightened the whole class.(they even though I got As or some better result).
sem 4 most tough subject for me is account and marketing, but both I got C~relief...

hey, Sem 5 is about to start..need to study even harder then before, all those tough subjects cramp up together in 1 sem..arghhhhhh!!!! after this sem, I am going for industrial training..hopefully everything will go smoothly(time gone like a wind)

ohya, yesterday Man United finally got their first win since the season started. United won Tottenham 1-0, thanks to a superb goal by new signing Nani.

One Litre of Tears

Few weeks back, my friend recommended me to watch this drama "1 litre of Tears".

He said very touching, even second episode you can start crying. But that time I didn't bother about it and I know that 8tv is showing it on every Saturday.

yesterday I was very boring and wanted to watch 1 last drama before college start on Monday.
Go around crunchyroll and found this "1 Litre of Tears". So, I decided to watch it.


(from Wikipidea)

This drama is based on the real-life struggles of a 15-year-old girl named Aya who suffered from an incurable disease, but lived life to the fullest until her death at 25. The script is based on the diary Aya kept writing until she could no longer hold a pen. The book that later followed entitled "One Litre of Tears" has sold over 1.8 million copies in Japan alone. Aya Kito proved her courage and positive attitude towards an uncertain future when suffering such an illness, spinocerebellar ataxia. The drama spans a decade, during which she graduates from school while her conditions worsen.

The story begins as Aya prepares for the new semester. Despite being happy, she suffers from slight physical problems, which only her mother seems to notice. However, one day, she falls unconsciously on the floor.

After she is sent to the hospital, she is shortly diagnosed with the disease. Despite the fact that she is diagnosed with the terminal illness, she does not lose the will to survive.

Aya Kito's diary " Litre no Namida" or "1 Litre of Tears" (also called "A Diary with Tears or A Diary of Tears" has been published after her death.
The diary, a true story based on her own life, was originally written in first person. It is about a girl coping with her teenage life along with a degenerative disease. She keeps a diary of not only what she does but how she feels and the hardships she must endure.

Erika Sawajiri played Aya Ikeuchi.

Hiroko Yakushimary played Shioka Ikeuchi (Aya's mum who played a big part in Aya's life especially when she has been diagnose with the disease)

Aya and her family during new year and her disease is getting more serious then before.

In the drama, a chracter named Aso Haruto has been added. The purpose is to fulfill late Aya's dream to be in love.

Pictures from her diary

Aya when she was just 15 year old. Still healthy and always with the friendly smile on her face.

Aya when she was 18. She needs wheelchair to assist with her movement.

Aya with her mom when she was 23 (the final stage of her disease). She is no longer able to speak and need the board to allow her to point out her message.

Aya's diaries which later been published into a full novel.

When she can't talk, can't walk and cannot do anything else. She can only write her diary. She said that this is the only way to show that she is still alive....

here are some lines from her diary.

“If I were a flower, then now I would be a bud."

"I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets."

"This disease, why did it choose me?"

"Fate. It can't be put into words."

"I want to make a time machine and go back in time."

"If it wasn't for this disease,not only I could enjoy falling in love but I also wouldn’t have to rely on anyone and live by myself."

"I really don't want to say things such as 'I want to go back to how things were before.' "

"I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on. Therefore I definitely won't run away. That's what I’ll do. Definitely, always. "

"Even if it's like that, I still want to stay here ,because this is the place where I am."

"If you look up at the sky after falling down ,the blue sky is also today stretching limitlessly and smiles at me...I'm alive."

"People shouldn’t dwell on the past. It's enough to try your best in all that you're doing now."

"Reality is too cruel, too brutal."

"I don’t even have the right to dream."

"As I think about the future, the tears will come out again."

"Mom, can I get married?"

**I didn't really cry through out the whole drama like what my friends experienced. But at the final 2 episodes, my tears finally drop. Surprise me as well, I never cry for any drama nor movie before this. It has been a long time since I cried, this is my first time after few years I guess..I though that I wouldn't cry for this drama, but maybe it is based on a true story. (felt relief after dropping some tears, at least I am still emotional)

I really have to salute the way Aya live with her life, she did everything she could to make sure she will not regret. She is tough and strong..not many people can continue live on when found out they have such incurable disease.

Aya Kito. ( 19 July 1962 - 23 May 1988) **Rest In Peace.**

even until now, her strong fighting spirit is still being spread through her family and her diary.

**the song in my blog now is from the drama itself. "Only Human by K"

ps: thank you Google for providing all these informations and pictures.

here is a little about the real Aya and some interview for the drama.







Appreciate what is in front of you~

ability??

does anyone ask you before, "if you can have a super power, what will it be??"

for guys, majority or 99.99% will choose being invisible.(probably after watching "hollow man")

while girls will think of maybe mind control,so they can get what they want without doing it~haha

please don't lie and tell others you will use your power to safe the world or help everyone that need it..err,maybe there is someone who got such a kind heart. But trust me, when you have such ability, you will rather help yourself first.

yes, being invisible is damn cool and you can do whatever you want without anyone notice it..

even I myself want to be invisible...com'on I am a guy!!

well, although being invisible is cool..but one of my childhood dream and even until NOW!!!
err..I've been thinking of FLYING~

yeah!!! I like freedom and I think only flying can provide me that feeling...(although being invisible is physically free)

errm...probably because of watching too much tv when I was a kid and it seems like almost every super hero can fly (no need to suffer in traffic jam and can reach anywhere easily)

even Batman have gadget to make him "fly"

I always think that one night maybe when I online until late night or watching Champions League at 2, 3 am...suddenly a bright white light shine through the window and an old man give me this flying power..haha(sounds ridiculous right??)

I am staying on 13th floors and all the windows got nothing blocking it (it is for better result when enjoying the view) , but I always feel like just stand on it and jump...maybe I can fly?? haha(don't worry, I didn't try it and I don't dare to try it as well)

But I did dream about flying on the air for several times..and it feels real!!!

how nice if I really can fly?? how nice if I can have super power...but not like those mutants in "X-men" , more prefer those in "Heroes". Human with special ability.

at least they don't need colourful and crazy outfit to present themselves like these bunch..

look at this...make me dizzy!!! haha

well..about this super power thingy is just a though when I was boring or day dreaming, so don't get mad at me or call me crazy. I like to imagine, okay??

** my holidays end in 2 days time...damn!!!

** result out on monday..DAMN!!!!

** Semester 5 is starting soon..damn!!!

all these stuff just running around my mind and it is driving me crazy!!! I need to overcome these pressure!!!

L.O.V.E.

Just got a phone call about an hour ago, friend called me and complain about her boyfriend (they just started about 1 month ago and start complaining)

Few months back, another friend complain to me about her boyfriend as well...(they been together for 3 years plus and through out the first year I know her, she has been complaining. still together though)

About a year ago, friend called me in the middle of the night and cry because she been dump~ (her relationship didn't last long but now she got a new one)

You guys must be thinking, am I Hitch or Love professor?? Let me tell you, I am not..I got not much experience on love either, just 2 (puppy love) and already nearly 4 years that I didn't involve in any relationship...even I ask myself, why did they call me?? (it's certainly not an affair!!!)

Beside all this not so smoothly relationship, there is smooth relationship happening around me as well, like one of my friend..know this girl who elder then him 2 years, it is his first love( I guess) and they are still together until now (it has been about 1 year plus)

One of the most successful relationship is from my mom's friend's daughter..she and her boyfriend started since form 3 and until now, about 15 years they are still together and getting marry soon..

my cousin brother, know his wife during high school but started few years later when they met again..after that, they both can't meet each other for few years,one at England and one at Malaysia and they got married 2 years ago~

another good example is my friend, since form 4 he know this girl but only as close friend until finish spm..they started after that, and never seen them as happy as before until now

all these love problem that happening around me, do affect my view towards love...it makes me afraid to fall in love (although I did for few times, but it just didn't turn out well), at the same time, I can't wait to fall in love again...

as I don't want my teenage life just end like that, man I have 2 years more to officially be an adult...is my teenage life is all about study and being single??

people having relationship will tell me stay single..you will be more happy (true)
single people will tell me, lets get a girlfriend..we are so f*cked up (true also)

for god sake, I never celebrate valentine or Christmas or even my birthday with my love one..wonder when will it happen?? hmmmmm

so what is LOVE??

according to wikipidea..

Love is a constellation of emotion and experiences related to a sense of strong affection or profound oneness. Romantic love is seen as an ineffable feeling of intense attraction shared in passionate or intimate attraction and intimate interpersonal and sexual relationships. Though often linked to personal relations, love is often given a broader signifition, a love of humanity, of nature, with life itself, or a oneness with the Universe, a universal love or karma.

types of love

1. erotic love : is an aesthetic focus on sexual desire, especially the feelings of anticipation of sexual activity.

2. platonic love : in its modern popular sense is a non-sexual affectionate relationship, especially in cases where one might easily assume otherwise

3. familial love : is a type affinity or natural affection felt between members of a group bound by common ancestry or blood ties.

4. puppy love : an informal term for feelings of love, particularly between young people during adolenses, so-called for its resemblance to the adoring, worshipful affection that may be felt by a puppy.

5. romantic love : a general term referring to the connection between "love" and the general idea of "romance", according to more traditional usages of the terms.

I think that love seriously need commitment from both side, there is no measurement on how much you ready to give and how much you ready to receive. Many people (those who are in relationship now) will definitely say that I don't understand anything about love. Maybe I really don't know much, but that is the basic thing that a relationship need and it is difficult to have that in a relationship. There will always be not enough~

love will happen when the right time and right person appear, my previous experience is just so not right, either too early or too late..haha!!

love is also will happen depends on the way you approach,I have tried straight forward and waiting, both also not working, probably wrong method on wrong person...haha

like what Rascal Flatts said :" I've been waiting all my life to find you..." (is a song, nice song!!!)

how come my life can be like those romantic drama,everything happen coincidently~

contract relationship and finally get married(too bad I am not a celebrity)

enemy become lover....

meet in library while both want the same book(err..I don't borrow book from library)

studying together in same college..(err..hopeless college)

living in same town...

first sight??

damn!!! those lovely drama just driving me crazy!!!!


hey, I think it is all about Karma..what have I done?? hmmmm
if it is about Karma, then what about those who dumped someone just to get with the new one?? or those change partner like changing clothes...do they get the Karma thingy as well??

wow!!! LOVE IS SO COMPLICATED!!!!!!

I will not fully understand it until the end of my life...that is for sure..


ps: for those who has been mentioned by me up there..please forgive me. (be proud, because you guys inspired me to blog about love) haha!!!