new skin

ok, I change my blog skin again.

Not because of I want to show off that I am in love right now, but I screw up the html when I trying to get the new music player to replace imeem's player. So after awhile of trying hard to fix it, I just look around in blogskin.com and found this.

so, now you guys can spam my chatbox again because your message will be posted immediately. more convenient for everyone right???

although I still prefer the previous skin, but this one turn out not bad, simple and easy to access...

cheers!!!

roller coaster off days

one week ago I found out my dog ran away from my 6th auntie's house and didn't come back. My auntie told another auntie who stays behind my 2nd auntie's shop few days later after it happen before she left to outstation. Then this auntie told my 2nd auntie few days later during a small talk. My 2nd auntie will usually go and feed my dog when my 6th auntie is not around since my working shift is always the fucked up one. She told my mom and went to look for her for few days.

then on last tuesday which was my off day, after stoning at home for 1 whole day. At night my mom told me "oh ya, your dog ran away" in the most relaxing and don't give a damn manner.

I was stunned and pissed on that moment especially when she said it happen few days ago. FEW DAYS AGO???!!! First my 6th auntie told another auntie few days later before she leaving, then this auntie told my 2nd auntie in a SMALL TALK and after approximately 1 week later I, my dog's real owner only got the news??? even my brother who dont give a damn on my dog knew it before me. WTF??!!!

where am I?? somewhere far away in another galaxy which you guys could not contact me?? did I come back in the middle of the night and when you guys leave to work, I was still asleep?? is my handphone not working at all?? Fuck NO!!!!

it seems like they just dont bother at all.

I drove out immediately to look for her which I should do roughly about 1 week ago if only I knew it. But I still try my luck and I couldn't find her. She got legs to walk around ok?? I even think maybe she ran out and look for me, so I drove to the old places I used to live but nothing happen also. I decided to wait infront of my 6th auntie's house just incase if she come back and I already took another day off. For the first few hours, my mom and brother came to ask me go home since she was gone for few days already. "oh, you guys also know it happen few days ago??" wow...so impressive and interesting.

I even got scolded for taking this action. I can't do anything now but wait and hope she will be back. Even though there hope is so slim but I still have to try. But being stop by my family and after few hours of waiting. I 'woke up' and think...maybe she is old and just dont want us to see her leave. So she left and find a place before leaving. Since she was a stray puppy, maybe she want to be free again before anything happen. So I drove home, I cried, I depressed.

I got no mood to work and I was like lost something in my heart. Luckily I have a wonderful girlfriend who cheer me up. Thanks sayank. :)

1 week later, another off day on tuesday after I got my passport renewed and went to buy my lunch. My 2nd auntie called me and said, "your 6th auntie found your dog last friday" I couldnt believe what I just hear and was so damn happy during that time...

wait a minute...did she just said on friday??? lets see...friday, saturday, sunday, monday and tuesday...ehmmmm....that is 5 days. =_="

fine, I dont care anymore as long as she is back. I have to wait for 1 whole day before visiting her on wednesday

me and Picky (reunion)

finally I got to see her again.Besides a small cut on top of her right eye , she is still so fat even after staying outside for 1 whole week and without proper meal.

sorry for being so emo for the past 1 week but now I am back to normal again. Thanks for those who help me through. Especially you baby, you really cheer me up through out this whole week of my depression.

life...

this is the entry I started 2 months ago, finally I can complete it...phew~

if someone ask you, which is the longest movie on this planet. Many would say Lord of the Ring trilogy because each episode is 4 hours long. (extended/ uncut version)

but if you ask me, I would say. The longest movie on this planet, is "My Life"
no, is not some Hollywood non-fiction movies or whoever famous people's biography. What I am trying to say here is the life I am having now, the one you are having now, the one that everyone who is living, used to live or going to live on this earth should have. No matter what happen to us, our own 'movie' is still the longest movie we have seen.


as what a chinese phrase said "life is like a movie, movie is like a life"
this is so ture...

why would I say so? Try to think about it. From the moment we are able to think and make decisions, we are making our own movie. We are the director, producer and writer of our own film. Well, unfortunately we are not the creator, that would be our parents. That is not the point, the point is we decide how will our story goes.

It has been in my mind few years back as in whatever I decide, it will not only make a difference in my life, it will also changes how the whole thing goes. But there is no NG once we made the move, we have to deal with what is in front of us and try our best not to screw it up. I know most of us screwed up some of them but we have to know how to pick up the mess and do our best to fix it.

our decision is so important that it will kept changing how the whole story goes, from the things we are about to do, words we are going to say, people that we newly meet, people around us, things happening around us, politics, environments and many more...all these will take part in the progress of our 'movie'


throughout our live, we have seen many 'movies' and we learn from them or hope that our movie will be like theirs. Not to forget, it is always up to us to decide whether our 'movie' can inspire others like those famous personnel did or it just the other way round. If you are good enough, when film makers are running out of idea, your story might be on the big screen in the future. (this is what happening now a day)

we also must take note that our 'movie' might been cut short if anything unfortunate happen to us. As we really won't know what will happen to us in the next minute. So, before it ends, why don't we do things that we really want to? If really something happen that will shorten the length of our 'movie', at least we won't feel regret even the 'movie' didn't have an official happy ending. Even if you can't make it, but at least you give your all and never give up once you face some difficulties. If you feel like doing it, do it and never back down!!! But not to commit crime, unless you think it is what you really want. (if you think it is the right thing to do, slap yourself now)

Not just that, we also have to make right choices to keep ourselves healthy because other than external incident that will shorten our 'movie', it also can happen internally. Running out of film maybe?? (if you know what I mean)

Since I am only 20 this years, soon to be 21 in March next year.( just an early reminder) As a teenagers and soon to be adult, we always wanted to do something adventurous, crazy, daring, not common, unusual...etc etc etc. Something that in the future, we can tell our children "I was crazy too back in those days" Something that when we turns to adult or starts our working life, we might not have the chance to do it anymore. So far, I really did quite a numbers of crazy stuff but did not harm myself or others. Positive crazy stuff I should say.

Other than that, we should dare to dream big. Even it sounds ridiculous or impossible to succeed it, but nothing is impossible in this planet now a day. Those crazy thinking and huge dream is what makes a person become successful in life. We might not be the greatest scientist who invented something that is very useful to the whole world or even becoming famous and rich just because of a search engine, but we can still create our own history with the passion and dream we have. We can even repeat history and make it even better. (in the good way as what I mean) I didn't ask you to go make a war again so you can have a square mustache right under your nose.

There is still a long way to go before I complete my 'movie' But until now, I did not regret on how the whole story goes. It is a good sign I guess, hope that I wont screw it up and when the day I complete my 'movie', I will say "damn, I have a wonderful life"

It is up to us to decide, whether we want a Best Movie in Raspberry Award

or an Oscar for Best Movie Award


I will certainly go for the Oscar~

walking...

It has been officially 2 months, yet not many people believe that I walk all the way from Hang Tuah LRT station to Pavilion and took the same way back after working. Only once in a while, brother or mom will pick me up if they are around when I finish working.

But other than that, I will walk...YES. walk walk walk and walk. I am so used to walking and taking lrt that I am really enjoying everyday especially when I see this incident...

worst jam on earth - traffic jam

but many friends will say

"gila lah you..."

"why don't take monorail?"

"not far meh?"

"wah...."

when they found out that I walk that far twice everyday...

my walking journey every working day (Kok Hong's style)

but walking has been part of my life since primary school.
I walk to school everyday when the school was just behind my house. During that time, if forgotten to bring anything. 1 public phone call and mom will come within 5 minutes if she haven't gone to work.

then come to secondary school, everyday have to walk from LRT station to school. After I've joined St. John Ambulance, every year will have this Flag Day where we will walk around KL to collect donations from public. That is when I was 'fully trained' to walk.

I cut down my walking since I can drive to college, but the 'passion' of walking is always in me and now I can let out my walking passion again.

wonder how much did I walk since I was born...

The reason why I chose walking rather than others to reach somewhere is because I found it is in walking distance. Well, maybe not for majority of the people living on this planet but for me, as long as I don't have to cross a huge river or climb through a mountain and most important is if time allows me, then I will walk!!!

this is what I tell those that think I walk from Hang Tuah to Pavilion is crazy.
I will say "as long as I can still walk, why not walk more?"

looking at some aged people that found it difficult to even walk 1 step or people with physical disorder, isn't that we are still lucky because we can walk??? I always think, one day when I am old and couldn't walk anymore, I will regret and think why didn't I walk more when I still can back in those days. But I guess I won't be the one who will regret because did not full use my legs when they are still functioning properly.

these legs are meant for walking~

other reason why I prefer walking rather than taking monorail?? is because I am lack of exercise because I don't go to gym like what people normally do now. Can't afford it and I am too lazy to work out at home. So, walk is my exercise although it did not much to me but still count. (according to wiki, walk is one of the best forms of exercise.) *in your face*

I used to hate walking when it is raining, especially during school times when we carry heavy bags and with cloth shoes. But now I enjoy it especially when finish working, it makes me feel better and at least it the weather is cool. If it happen when I go to work, it makes me lazy and wanted to stay at home.

difference between driving and walking...

but again, looking at the traffic jam, I like walking more!!! Unless got splash by water when car pass by. *be more alert while walking in the rain* So far it didn't happen on me.

Lately, I just realise that the good thing for walking is...
if you have a camera and enjoy taking photos like me, this is a very good chance to explore~
because by walking, I can stop anytime to take a photo and it hardly can be done while driving...will cause accident ok?

when I drive, I have seen many potential nice photo but didn't have the chance to snap it because traffic is moving, unless it happen at the right timing like traffic jam or red light. Most of the time photo taken while driving turn out bad, blur...even my camera have the anti-shake mode which I turn it on since I first use it.

took this while waiting for red light to turn green...

but I can fully enjoy taking photos while walking because I have time to look around, turn back, look up, down, left , right or even stop and stare. Although I walk the same way for the past 2 months and still counting, but I do act like tourist from time to time.

Especially when the sky is blue and the clouds are white that comes with a bright sun which equals to beautiful day. What is the best to starts off your work other than looking at a beautiful sky?

on my way to Cahaya Station

For most of the time, I will be looking at the sky and admiring it. The best 1 would be right after raining, that is when the sky is clear and everything looks clean. I hardly have time to take photos when I am heading to work, that is why I like it the most when my schedule ends few hours before the sun goes down. That is when I am really enjoy walking and taking my own sweet time to look around and take photos.

underneath traffic light

Pudu Jail

reflection of blue sky...

heading towards Hang Tuah Station

pigeons on roof top

I prefer taking photos on day time because the photos is exactly what I saw with my eyes as in the colours and brightness. But when the sky turns dark, what I snap is not what I saw.

like this one...

blue lights with blue sky.

the sky is not that dark but flash light cause it and there is no moons on the sky, just that my lens is dirty. (turn out quite nice though...)

It has been awhile since I last posted sunset photos which even I myself found it wasted because of my working shift and awful weather during evening. But I am still full using my camera not for camwhoring myself but shows appreciation towards the nature. SKY.

and because of that, I enjoy walking and never think of it is tiring even after hours of working.

Cahaya Station...

It motivates me...
I think this is the strength in me, I can find ways to enjoy doing something out of something that others think it is crazy to walk that far everyday.

if you want to know more about 'walk'..just google it. I am not really interested to find out more about walking because what I care most is that I can still walk.

some sunset pic I found in my folders...did I posted this before?

ahh..just another entry, cause it has been awhile since I last blogged and there is nothing new happen in my life besides working~